teeeeeeeth!

helllooooo! :)

finally, I've got the time to blog about my life. not that you guys are interested in anyways HAHAHAHA. well. i don't know.

ANYWAYS, guess who's finally got braces!!!

M TO THE E.

well, truth be told I wasn't that excited cos I've heard stories about how it'll hurt like a bitch after putting them on and stuff and I mean like, who will look good with bits of metal in their mouth?!!?!?!!

but then again, my teeth really does need some constructing. :(

sooooooo I'll just let the pictures do the talking! (quite sure nobody wants to read my ramblings)

on the side note, I've been feeling kinda shitty nowadays. not sure if this is a teenage phase everyone goes through, but yeah. been breaking down loads & loads these few days, weeks in fact. #sighpie

I'm probably the most shitty friend, daughter and person in the world.

byeee. .

Update :) (29/04/13)

hellooooo! :)

haven't blogged lately because I've recently been extremely busy with things like exams etc. I promise you I've had this nagging feeling to blog for the longest time, so here I am, ready to pour my soul out.

so, let me start with the fight I had with my so called best friend. we used to be the closest pair ever. everyone thought our friendship had already lasted for a decade or more (met her when I was 13). we used to be inseparable. we were each other's confident, (well at least for me) and we never stabbed each other from the back (at least for me, not sure about her).

however, everything changed. drastically. like walls crumbling down, like an airplane out of fuel, falling. our friendship became rocky. we were irritable towards each other. everything was a mess.

we finally broke.

yep, this may seem like a typical tragic love story, but no. it's about friendship.

a lost friend is as agonizing as a lost love.

when we see each other now, instead of being north-south pole, we are now north-north pole. I'm not too sure if she has bitched about me, but I no longer care. what matters is who I have now. and my own happiness.

screw that bitch.

carrying on from this drama, came exams. what else can I say. I'm not a studious person, I detest studying like every other kid (with a few exceptions of course). I go to school everyday, having to see my former best friend, having fun with her new found buddy. I do feel a pinch in my heart honestly, but when I'm knocked back into the present I'm reminded of the wonderful friends I have currently (I do pray that it'll stay this way), I roll my eyes and walk off.

childish, you may say?

well, I'm not a grown up, and I don't intend on acting like one.

okay, enough of all this shit.

recently, just last Friday, I went for my tooth extraction! in total, I have to extract 4 (!!!!!) teeth in preparation for my braces.

obviously, I wasn't brave enough to extract all 4 at one go.

so I extracted 2 by 2 :D

I do not want to go in detail because of all the blood and stuff, so I'll just let the pictures do the talking! (pictures will be random, I just can't seem to arrange them accordingly!!)

till my next post,

byeeeeeee. ❤

broken.

have u ever had those moments when u want to break down? have u ever had those moments when u just want to stop everything and well, die?

I do. every, single, day.

being a Christian and all, I try my hardest not to think about these problems and just leave it all to God. I tried, I really did.

but sometimes I really just can't help it, I ask God, 'WHY? WHY IS IT LIKE THAT? WHY DO U LET ME SUFFER LIKE THAT? IS THIS A TEST? IF IT IS, CAN I GIVE UP?'

I consult my parents, I consult my friends. but none of them seem to help. they just don't know how I really feel. they don't know because they're not living my life. they merely give simple, retarded advices and just tell me that everything will be alright. and then they smile and forget all about my problems.

I wish I can be like them too. just smile, and forget about all my troubles.

well, smiling is the same as suicide, isn't it?

this isn't a suicidal post, it's more of a 'what I'm truly feeling now' post.

I try, but I fail.

I pray, but unanswered.

I trust, but wavered.

dear Lord, please help me.