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I'm not okay. And I'm not lying. I really mean it when I say that I'm not okay. Many tell me that I have no right to say I'm not okay. Many say I have not seen the real world yet. Many say I'm too young to understand what it means by 'not okay'. Well, I'm quite sure I myself will know when I'm feeling okay and when I'm not. My definition of feeling okay and not okay defers from many others, but I know that I know because I'm not feeling okay. Does that make sense? It may not to many, and they may hate me for that. But I'm fine with it. That's life, isn't it?

This is not going to be some emotional post, not some 'I'm so depressed I'm gonna die' post. It's just a post to let everyone (who's reading this) know that sometimes, even the happiest frown. Sometimes, even the ones who smile cry. Sometimes, I just don't feel that great.

Many tell me about how lucky I am, how fortunate I am. I don't deny that. I am extremely fortunate to have loving parents and an amazing God.

But then, some people do go overboard and assume that I'm always happy, always so easy-going and well, an easy target to bitch to others. I know of many 'friends' that bitch about me behind my back, but what can I do? I don't want to lose these friendships.

I will endure the pain inflicted.

Many day how spoilt I am, forever posting 'ootd's on instagram', 'shopping hauls' and all that. That is only because I choose to show the happier side of my life to the world. Would you like to see someone's profile full of emo posts and things that remind you of the horrible stuff on earth? Probably not.

I'm lonely being the only child. I have suffered from depression at the age of 12. (cured now, I think) I have a weak immune system, not the kind where you think is manageable. I fall sick every month. I am on a daily dose of both Chinese and English medicine, possibly having to take them for my whole life. I have doubts about my 'perfect' famy. I have feelings. I get angry. I get sad. I get sensitive. I get annoyed.

Am I wrong to have a life like that? Am I being an attention seeking bitch by telling you these?

I only feel comforted by the fact that I know God would not judge me. God would not forsake me. God would never, ever, turn His back against me.

I pray, for those unforgiving and judgmental souls out there (like myself), that they would change.

Amen.

♡ ;;

Do you know of such beautiful autumn days, not cold just a little chilly, perfect? When leaves on trees start turning orange, red, and yellow. When flowers slowly wither away and green grass transforms into light brown hay. When you feel like taking a long walk, then wrap yourself in a wilt, drink hot chocolate and relax with a book in your hands.

Raindrops against your windows, wind knocking on the glass and the comfort of your warm bed. Don’t you ever think how wonderful it would feel to be a child again? On a stormy night, tell scary stories under blankets while wasting batteries on flashlights. Asking your mother to read you fairy tales and believing every word. Every single word.

When did you grow up and why did you lose that bottomless happiness in the process? Why isn’t world as interesting a place anymore and why doesn’t your imagination offer you timeless abyss like it used to? Where would you find yourself again and how?

Everyone needs a bit of a fairy tale in their lives.


(cr. fanfic)

Friendly match ; Singapore VS Malaysia! :)

Helloooooo! :)

So today, instead of having the usual boring training, we had guests from Malaysia to spice things up a little! :)

In total there was about 20-25 players from Malaysia. They were very well-known in their region for their excellent skills!

However, Singapore's team NYGH (cheesy omg) isn't too far behind them either!!!

HAHAHAHAHA, do I sound like a commentator??

Anyways, due to space constraint, I managed to play only 5 matches during that short period of 1 hour. That was actually quite a lot considering I never left the playing area to rest! (my teacher kept urging me to play and not rest)

After our friendly competition, we went to have a mini buffet that consisted of only fruit punch, curry puff and eclair HAHA. pathetic right???? sheesh, can't expect much honestly.

We interacted a lot and honestly I find that sometimes, it's worth making a fool out of yourself just to break the awkward atmosphere. (which is what I did, and trust me, it takes a while to get used to embarrassing yourself on purpose)

Sadly, they were only here for 1 day! Which meant that it'll be our first and last time seeing each other :(

Managed to take some photos with a few of the players! (pictures below)

Byeeeeee! ❤

Dinner with loves ❤

Helllooooo! :)

So today, I finally went dinner + supper with two of my dearest church friends again! :)

I really enjoy being around them as they never fail to amuse me ;) Also, they never fail to make me feel loved! If you know me personally, you should know that I never go out in groups of an odd number. My reason is pretty lame actually, and its because there's bound to be that one poor person that'll be left out. (be it when having conversations, sitting in restaurants or even when walking on the pavements) That's why whenever there are odd numbered group outings, I would either be very very super quiet or back out.

BUT, hanging out with my church friends leaves me worry-free of being left out! I am truly blessed to have such friends in my life. ♡

Anyways, back to today. I met up with Apphia for dinner before going for desert (supper) with her and Beatrice! :)

We stayed at Scoopz for almost 2 hours just talking and laughing!! (and playing card games hahahahaha)

Maybe it was just me being bias, but I really felt that the atmosphere around us was so loving and pure. The reasons for our laughter was always unknown though! HAHAHAHAHA!

After that lovely time spent with my two bestest friends, it was time to depart.

Even though they are unaware of this blog's existence, I felt that I should share with you guys the wonderful friendship one can have if its surrounding around God's love.

Anyways instead of me talking so much, I shall let the pictures tell you guys how much fun we had! :)

(please do bear with our rather horrendous faces, we do enjoy taking silly pictures of ourselves)

Just a little thought :)

I was scrolling through my Twitter timeline, or tlist as everyone calls it, and saw a particular tweet by somebody, saying,'couldn't go to Demi Lovato's concert because of my parents refused to give me money. FML.'

This led me to think of how often the term 'FML'(Fuck My Life) is used.

I do know how much a concert ticket costs as I myself have been to many concerts. They are easily $100++ and sometimes may cost up to $300. That somebody's parents may not have the ability or felt that there was no need to spend so much money on a concert ticket.

I'm not saying that concert tickets are a waste of money, I'm just using it as an example.

FML shouldn't be used. Well, in my opinion at least.

I used to say that quite a bit in my newbie months of being on Twitter. It became a term than kind of ends the sentence, like 'LOL'. ( I too don't like using the term 'LOL')

Howover, I think that instead of saying that 'your life sucks', why don't we count the many blessings that God has oh so generously given to us?

I will very proudly say that I am a very blessed girl. I am blessed with loving parents (and a rather lively & lovable bunny), an amazing extended family, wonderful friends, and lastly the almighty living God. I may not be rich enough to own a million pairs of shoes (which I think is not necessary), and I may not have a house that has a backyard that stretches miles and miles into the sidewalks. But I am blessed to have a roof over my head, clothes to wear and shoes to keep my feet safe.

So instead of saying 'FML', why don't we say 'BBG' -- Blessed By God? :)

Let's all learn to take a moment out of our busy lives and count our blessings.

Ending off with a bible verse,
Ephesians 1:3 | Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ

❤

Something NEW! :)

Helloooooo! :)

I wanted to do a blog post on my hauls for the past week, but I was too lazy. hehe.

So i decided to try it in a different way!

THROUGH A VIDEO!! cheers to me for having the courage to show you guys my face hahahaahha.

Please don't judge me. Thanks :)

Instashop name: thecurtaincall
Online website: http://www.shopdiygalore.com/

Thanks for watching my video (if you did) and I hope you didn't faint from seeing my face for a good 9 mins!!


Byeeeee :)

♥ 

Advertorial + Update On My Life! :)

Hellooooooo! :)

I have been procrastinating yet again! Yay! 

I actually wanted to do this blogpost on Thursday but i dragged it till today. oops :x

Thought I'd just update you guys  on my life! :)

LOOK WHO GOT THEIR EAR RE PIERCED FINALLLLLLYYY!!

My right ear closed up a few months after I first pierced it, which made me very very sad :( 

I've been delaying for about 3 months now! eheheh. 

eeps but now I have to use those ugly standard sterilized whatever earrings. sheesh. 

Weird face to celebrate my now more balanced (?) ears :D

And this is my rabbit lazing around. 

Somehow he manages to look better than me even when lying on the floor. 

damn.

ALSO, I finally received my clothes that i ordered from http://www.shopdiygalore.com/ !! :)

I actually ordered it before CNY..... But late better than none! (I guess?)

I ordered the Candy Pink Knitted top, Denim X Aztec Dress and the Patch Work Leather Dress In Black (Petite) :)

Reaaaaallly happy with the workmanship on the clothes and i love how they look great even on camera! Overall, I'm happy with the price and the uniqueness of the clothes :) 

I tried taking full body shots but I can't find my camera stand UGH. So, I had to make do with my mirror. HAHAHAHA. 

Anyways, pictures below! ~ 

Candy Pink Knitted Top 

$24.50 

The back of this sweater is slightly longer than the front, which makes it even more unique! 

The colours look so bright and lively! 

I like how it fits my shoulders well because it's really hard for me to find sweaters that fit my tiny frame. 

Next up is the Denim X Aztec Dress!

$21.00

It is exclusively manufactured by SHOPDIYGALORE! BONUSSSSS!! :)

I like how it's simple yet unique.

I love to be unique, who doesn't?!

Preeeeettyyyyyyy :)

Last but not least, the Patch Work Leather Dress In Black (Petite)

This dress gives off an edgy feeling, don't you think?

I like the fact that the skirt is fanned out like a skater skirt!

(I am a fan of skater skirts at the moment. teehee.)

*Disclaimer: I am not paid to advertise them, I am doing this out of my own will because I like the clothes they have and I want to share them with you guys! 

That's all! I have to go sleep now although it's only 10.50pm here in Singapore as I am still feeling terrible and I have competitions tomorrow :(

Byeeeeeeeee. 

 ♥