Finally Fifteeeeeen! ♡

hellooooooo! :)

really special post today, because it's all about my birthday celebration that happened last night!!!!

firstly, i just wanna thank everybody who came for my party even when the haze was still really bad. and yes, singapore has been suffering the worst haze because of Indonesia's burning and all. yes, i blame indonesia!!

anyways, the people who came down braved the haze to celebrate my 15th birthday with me, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

even though it was a small party, i still had the time of my life spending it with the closest school friends ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

i shall proceed with the normal procedure & post all the photos hehehhehehhehehe

coolest drink on earth -- fake sparkling wine. (it really does taste like real wine) 

please take a moment to stare in horror at how small my eyes were yesterday from crying HAHAHAHA

braces! (& update)

hellooooooo! :)

today's the first time I'm going for the tightening of my braces, which also means that I can finally change the color of my rubber bands!

previously, they were a hot pink color, but today I've chosen to go for a turquoise (-:

also, I've been extremely busy these few weeks (well more like since june holidays started). I didn't do well for the first half of the year which means know I have to study like some mad cow every day. ((but obviously failed too))

also, my coach has been talking to me and let's just say I'm not the happiest with what's going to happen in our team next year. not going to let out the details and bore everyone out.

I've also been recently loving to watch model scouting videos!!! I watched The Model Scouts thru YouTube and I just finished the season which was based on Ireland girls. Jenni & David (scouters for IMG) went to different place of Ireland (eg Dublin) to scout for new faces!! obviously I had my fav, which is Aishling O Connell!!!!!! she is so super gorgeous & I swear our personalities are super super alike!!! she has the most electrifying blue eyes and cutest mouth shape which can look damn sexy yet elegant at the same time. (okay sounding like a pervert here) idk why but now I kinda aspire to be a model now hahahaha. EVERY STREET IS MY RUNWAY! HAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAHAHAHAH don't mind me now (-:

also, on Friday, I went for the mid year YP retreat! (church event) I had the time of my life there and it was really heartwarming to see young Christians gathering together at some ulu place at the aloha changi bungalows to sing praises and worship Him ❤❤

'Amazing love, You are my King ❤'



byeeeeeeee! ^~^
(sorry the pictures are so messy, I'm too dumb to understand how I'm supposed to rearrange them via blogger for iPhone)

nails!! ❤❤

helloooooo!! (:

I'm finally taking a break from studying.

'WHAT?! STUDYING DURING THE JUNE HOLIDAYS?!'

yeeeeeep.

don't get me wrong, I'm not a councillor or perfect scorer or whatever. I'm studying so hard because I need to pass. oh well hahaha anyways!!

since its the holidays, it means that I can finally paint my nails!!!! nail painting is a passion for me & I have had an interest in it since I was in kindergarten. (i know, crazy right?!)
It's really fascinating how we can paint pictures, do abstract art & just color our nails! believe it or not, I can spend literally THE WHOLE DAY just watching nail tutorials. yup, no need to eat, sleep, drink, pee (& poo). I'm just really really passionate about nail arts! (-:

now, not gonna brag, but I am a preeettyyy decent nail painter. okay just joking, I'm fab at it. HAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHA!

I enjoy making my nails look all pretty & cool, & posting pictures of my nails on my instagram! ^^ I love it whenever people compliment my nails/skills hehehehehe.

been watching many many YouTube videos to get inspired for new designs recently, & I really recommend cutepolish and anneorshine !!!! they have really fresh & interesting designs which never fail to inspire me!!

words aside, I'll just let the pictures do the talking :)


byeeeeee! ❤

teeeeeeeth!

helllooooo! :)

finally, I've got the time to blog about my life. not that you guys are interested in anyways HAHAHAHA. well. i don't know.

ANYWAYS, guess who's finally got braces!!!

M TO THE E.

well, truth be told I wasn't that excited cos I've heard stories about how it'll hurt like a bitch after putting them on and stuff and I mean like, who will look good with bits of metal in their mouth?!!?!?!!

but then again, my teeth really does need some constructing. :(

sooooooo I'll just let the pictures do the talking! (quite sure nobody wants to read my ramblings)

on the side note, I've been feeling kinda shitty nowadays. not sure if this is a teenage phase everyone goes through, but yeah. been breaking down loads & loads these few days, weeks in fact. #sighpie

I'm probably the most shitty friend, daughter and person in the world.

byeee. .

Update :) (29/04/13)

hellooooo! :)

haven't blogged lately because I've recently been extremely busy with things like exams etc. I promise you I've had this nagging feeling to blog for the longest time, so here I am, ready to pour my soul out.

so, let me start with the fight I had with my so called best friend. we used to be the closest pair ever. everyone thought our friendship had already lasted for a decade or more (met her when I was 13). we used to be inseparable. we were each other's confident, (well at least for me) and we never stabbed each other from the back (at least for me, not sure about her).

however, everything changed. drastically. like walls crumbling down, like an airplane out of fuel, falling. our friendship became rocky. we were irritable towards each other. everything was a mess.

we finally broke.

yep, this may seem like a typical tragic love story, but no. it's about friendship.

a lost friend is as agonizing as a lost love.

when we see each other now, instead of being north-south pole, we are now north-north pole. I'm not too sure if she has bitched about me, but I no longer care. what matters is who I have now. and my own happiness.

screw that bitch.

carrying on from this drama, came exams. what else can I say. I'm not a studious person, I detest studying like every other kid (with a few exceptions of course). I go to school everyday, having to see my former best friend, having fun with her new found buddy. I do feel a pinch in my heart honestly, but when I'm knocked back into the present I'm reminded of the wonderful friends I have currently (I do pray that it'll stay this way), I roll my eyes and walk off.

childish, you may say?

well, I'm not a grown up, and I don't intend on acting like one.

okay, enough of all this shit.

recently, just last Friday, I went for my tooth extraction! in total, I have to extract 4 (!!!!!) teeth in preparation for my braces.

obviously, I wasn't brave enough to extract all 4 at one go.

so I extracted 2 by 2 :D

I do not want to go in detail because of all the blood and stuff, so I'll just let the pictures do the talking! (pictures will be random, I just can't seem to arrange them accordingly!!)

till my next post,

byeeeeeee. ❤

broken.

have u ever had those moments when u want to break down? have u ever had those moments when u just want to stop everything and well, die?

I do. every, single, day.

being a Christian and all, I try my hardest not to think about these problems and just leave it all to God. I tried, I really did.

but sometimes I really just can't help it, I ask God, 'WHY? WHY IS IT LIKE THAT? WHY DO U LET ME SUFFER LIKE THAT? IS THIS A TEST? IF IT IS, CAN I GIVE UP?'

I consult my parents, I consult my friends. but none of them seem to help. they just don't know how I really feel. they don't know because they're not living my life. they merely give simple, retarded advices and just tell me that everything will be alright. and then they smile and forget all about my problems.

I wish I can be like them too. just smile, and forget about all my troubles.

well, smiling is the same as suicide, isn't it?

this isn't a suicidal post, it's more of a 'what I'm truly feeling now' post.

I try, but I fail.

I pray, but unanswered.

I trust, but wavered.

dear Lord, please help me.