nails!! ❤❤

helloooooo!! (:

I'm finally taking a break from studying.

'WHAT?! STUDYING DURING THE JUNE HOLIDAYS?!'

yeeeeeep.

don't get me wrong, I'm not a councillor or perfect scorer or whatever. I'm studying so hard because I need to pass. oh well hahaha anyways!!

since its the holidays, it means that I can finally paint my nails!!!! nail painting is a passion for me & I have had an interest in it since I was in kindergarten. (i know, crazy right?!)
It's really fascinating how we can paint pictures, do abstract art & just color our nails! believe it or not, I can spend literally THE WHOLE DAY just watching nail tutorials. yup, no need to eat, sleep, drink, pee (& poo). I'm just really really passionate about nail arts! (-:

now, not gonna brag, but I am a preeettyyy decent nail painter. okay just joking, I'm fab at it. HAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHA!

I enjoy making my nails look all pretty & cool, & posting pictures of my nails on my instagram! ^^ I love it whenever people compliment my nails/skills hehehehehe.

been watching many many YouTube videos to get inspired for new designs recently, & I really recommend cutepolish and anneorshine !!!! they have really fresh & interesting designs which never fail to inspire me!!

words aside, I'll just let the pictures do the talking :)


byeeeeee! ❤

teeeeeeeth!

helllooooo! :)

finally, I've got the time to blog about my life. not that you guys are interested in anyways HAHAHAHA. well. i don't know.

ANYWAYS, guess who's finally got braces!!!

M TO THE E.

well, truth be told I wasn't that excited cos I've heard stories about how it'll hurt like a bitch after putting them on and stuff and I mean like, who will look good with bits of metal in their mouth?!!?!?!!

but then again, my teeth really does need some constructing. :(

sooooooo I'll just let the pictures do the talking! (quite sure nobody wants to read my ramblings)

on the side note, I've been feeling kinda shitty nowadays. not sure if this is a teenage phase everyone goes through, but yeah. been breaking down loads & loads these few days, weeks in fact. #sighpie

I'm probably the most shitty friend, daughter and person in the world.

byeee. .

Update :) (29/04/13)

hellooooo! :)

haven't blogged lately because I've recently been extremely busy with things like exams etc. I promise you I've had this nagging feeling to blog for the longest time, so here I am, ready to pour my soul out.

so, let me start with the fight I had with my so called best friend. we used to be the closest pair ever. everyone thought our friendship had already lasted for a decade or more (met her when I was 13). we used to be inseparable. we were each other's confident, (well at least for me) and we never stabbed each other from the back (at least for me, not sure about her).

however, everything changed. drastically. like walls crumbling down, like an airplane out of fuel, falling. our friendship became rocky. we were irritable towards each other. everything was a mess.

we finally broke.

yep, this may seem like a typical tragic love story, but no. it's about friendship.

a lost friend is as agonizing as a lost love.

when we see each other now, instead of being north-south pole, we are now north-north pole. I'm not too sure if she has bitched about me, but I no longer care. what matters is who I have now. and my own happiness.

screw that bitch.

carrying on from this drama, came exams. what else can I say. I'm not a studious person, I detest studying like every other kid (with a few exceptions of course). I go to school everyday, having to see my former best friend, having fun with her new found buddy. I do feel a pinch in my heart honestly, but when I'm knocked back into the present I'm reminded of the wonderful friends I have currently (I do pray that it'll stay this way), I roll my eyes and walk off.

childish, you may say?

well, I'm not a grown up, and I don't intend on acting like one.

okay, enough of all this shit.

recently, just last Friday, I went for my tooth extraction! in total, I have to extract 4 (!!!!!) teeth in preparation for my braces.

obviously, I wasn't brave enough to extract all 4 at one go.

so I extracted 2 by 2 :D

I do not want to go in detail because of all the blood and stuff, so I'll just let the pictures do the talking! (pictures will be random, I just can't seem to arrange them accordingly!!)

till my next post,

byeeeeeee. ❤

broken.

have u ever had those moments when u want to break down? have u ever had those moments when u just want to stop everything and well, die?

I do. every, single, day.

being a Christian and all, I try my hardest not to think about these problems and just leave it all to God. I tried, I really did.

but sometimes I really just can't help it, I ask God, 'WHY? WHY IS IT LIKE THAT? WHY DO U LET ME SUFFER LIKE THAT? IS THIS A TEST? IF IT IS, CAN I GIVE UP?'

I consult my parents, I consult my friends. but none of them seem to help. they just don't know how I really feel. they don't know because they're not living my life. they merely give simple, retarded advices and just tell me that everything will be alright. and then they smile and forget all about my problems.

I wish I can be like them too. just smile, and forget about all my troubles.

well, smiling is the same as suicide, isn't it?

this isn't a suicidal post, it's more of a 'what I'm truly feeling now' post.

I try, but I fail.

I pray, but unanswered.

I trust, but wavered.

dear Lord, please help me.

Anonymous

I'm not okay. And I'm not lying. I really mean it when I say that I'm not okay. Many tell me that I have no right to say I'm not okay. Many say I have not seen the real world yet. Many say I'm too young to understand what it means by 'not okay'. Well, I'm quite sure I myself will know when I'm feeling okay and when I'm not. My definition of feeling okay and not okay defers from many others, but I know that I know because I'm not feeling okay. Does that make sense? It may not to many, and they may hate me for that. But I'm fine with it. That's life, isn't it?

This is not going to be some emotional post, not some 'I'm so depressed I'm gonna die' post. It's just a post to let everyone (who's reading this) know that sometimes, even the happiest frown. Sometimes, even the ones who smile cry. Sometimes, I just don't feel that great.

Many tell me about how lucky I am, how fortunate I am. I don't deny that. I am extremely fortunate to have loving parents and an amazing God.

But then, some people do go overboard and assume that I'm always happy, always so easy-going and well, an easy target to bitch to others. I know of many 'friends' that bitch about me behind my back, but what can I do? I don't want to lose these friendships.

I will endure the pain inflicted.

Many day how spoilt I am, forever posting 'ootd's on instagram', 'shopping hauls' and all that. That is only because I choose to show the happier side of my life to the world. Would you like to see someone's profile full of emo posts and things that remind you of the horrible stuff on earth? Probably not.

I'm lonely being the only child. I have suffered from depression at the age of 12. (cured now, I think) I have a weak immune system, not the kind where you think is manageable. I fall sick every month. I am on a daily dose of both Chinese and English medicine, possibly having to take them for my whole life. I have doubts about my 'perfect' famy. I have feelings. I get angry. I get sad. I get sensitive. I get annoyed.

Am I wrong to have a life like that? Am I being an attention seeking bitch by telling you these?

I only feel comforted by the fact that I know God would not judge me. God would not forsake me. God would never, ever, turn His back against me.

I pray, for those unforgiving and judgmental souls out there (like myself), that they would change.

Amen.

♡ ;;

Do you know of such beautiful autumn days, not cold just a little chilly, perfect? When leaves on trees start turning orange, red, and yellow. When flowers slowly wither away and green grass transforms into light brown hay. When you feel like taking a long walk, then wrap yourself in a wilt, drink hot chocolate and relax with a book in your hands.

Raindrops against your windows, wind knocking on the glass and the comfort of your warm bed. Don’t you ever think how wonderful it would feel to be a child again? On a stormy night, tell scary stories under blankets while wasting batteries on flashlights. Asking your mother to read you fairy tales and believing every word. Every single word.

When did you grow up and why did you lose that bottomless happiness in the process? Why isn’t world as interesting a place anymore and why doesn’t your imagination offer you timeless abyss like it used to? Where would you find yourself again and how?

Everyone needs a bit of a fairy tale in their lives.


(cr. fanfic)

Friendly match ; Singapore VS Malaysia! :)

Helloooooo! :)

So today, instead of having the usual boring training, we had guests from Malaysia to spice things up a little! :)

In total there was about 20-25 players from Malaysia. They were very well-known in their region for their excellent skills!

However, Singapore's team NYGH (cheesy omg) isn't too far behind them either!!!

HAHAHAHAHA, do I sound like a commentator??

Anyways, due to space constraint, I managed to play only 5 matches during that short period of 1 hour. That was actually quite a lot considering I never left the playing area to rest! (my teacher kept urging me to play and not rest)

After our friendly competition, we went to have a mini buffet that consisted of only fruit punch, curry puff and eclair HAHA. pathetic right???? sheesh, can't expect much honestly.

We interacted a lot and honestly I find that sometimes, it's worth making a fool out of yourself just to break the awkward atmosphere. (which is what I did, and trust me, it takes a while to get used to embarrassing yourself on purpose)

Sadly, they were only here for 1 day! Which meant that it'll be our first and last time seeing each other :(

Managed to take some photos with a few of the players! (pictures below)

Byeeeeee! ❤